What I wrote might not make a lot of sense but I can't concentrate very well now so I'm posting because I promised it.
It's getting to that time of the month/quarter/semester again: the time when I tend to take a step back and reevaluate some things going on recently. This is probably happening because of the mixture of what is currently happening in Brazil, the fact that I'm not there to be part of it and the fact that my year in Sweden is coming to an end. In about ten days time I will be landing again in my city, I will see everyone again, drink a Chimarrão and go back to speaking my native language daily. But before that I need to be by myself for some time.
I have had a wonderful year here with memories that I'll take for the rest of my life with me, and I also had probably as many of those personal moments in a year as I had had in my entire life previously. The experience and the moments themselves have changed me to degrees I could not possibly explain in words. What matters is that it happened.
If you don't have those moments for yourself, I ask you to set aside one day of your life, turn off the music or any type of sound that might be on the background, lay down on the grass and reflect while looking at the sky, or a tree, or a flying squirrel. Stop trying to think of anything and just see where your mind will lead you. It's an adventure and it is a good exercise of self discovery. Take a notebook and write about your experience in the "other world", reading that afterwards is surely fun.